tAke d LeAd.. =)

i'm so in love w take e lead!!
oh man, the dancing is absolutely to die for..
baby lets go learn!!
*grin*
lol..
i tink i've typed tis like a few times already..
but it'll happen soon.. =)
*confident*

rehearsals r finalli over..
but tho it had been reali bz i kinda miss it..
w the silli indian and hiphop dances we do during break..
n e no-butter-no-sugar olive oil biscuits shirley always hav..
ruth's super sweet.. =)
and ibel!! lol..
his super high pitch shrieks..
oh oh, n sue..
tsk tsk, wait till my mummi finds out wad u've been teachin mi..
*shakes head*
bibi n e whole lightology gang too..
pink squad, cream puffs n cake-dance lady!..
hehe..
n i tot the warm-ups were cute..

went out w mummi n l2p2 n k2F today..
bought new black puma bag..
it was e last piece..
e lady bluffed us cos after we bought it the cashier said a new shipment was coming but ya..
i've been eyeing it ever since shirley got the gold one..
hehe..

i miss all the girlies!!!
stephie do try to make it k?..
*crosses fingers n toes*
ooh n i'll be seeing the postie dearies tis sat!!..
*excited*
=)

could i have this dance for the rest of my life..

XXXXXXXL

happy birthday mummi!!..
*singsong*
lol..

tania n i were at california gym yest..
nice toilets n locker room..
but i tink i can count the machines i bother trying on the fingers of one hand..
k, so its not for mi..
lol..
anyway, we saw tim there..

went out w mummi after..
got pretty white heels..
they were the last pair they had n the first i tried..
lol..
i tink next time i shud jus buy the first thing i try..
save time..
went on cake tasting spree!..
yummy.. =)
cept fer the green tea cake from bakerzin tt wasnt exactli the best tastin cake..

dragged mummi to tis bellydancing trial class..
hehe..
it was HILARIOUS.
oh man..
sometink sometink shimmy n sometink sometink..
k nv mind..
cant rmb..

was clearing out my cupboard tis morning..
i tink i'm jus TOO smart smart pants sometimes..
found like XS tops in the my wardrobe..
where in e world do i look like i might fit into XS?..
sure, i fit SNUGLY..
like a giant dumpling..
lol..
so i had two choices:
1. lose weight n yay!. supply of new clothes at no cost.. or
2. get rid of the clothes
choice no 1 was super temptin but tink it'll be kinda cuttin of a toe to fit into shoes..
k tt's a gross thought..
but at least my wardrobe's a lil more tidy now..
*beam*

wHat LAstS..

when i was a kid i had big dreams..
to fly..
to seek out every experience imaginable..
you cud sae i did tinks jus so tt i cud grow old knowing i tried it..

i always tot i was strong..
nv admitting to being scared of anytink.
tho the dark gave mi the creeps, i forced myself to tink otherwise.
sad movies, i nv understood how pple cud cry..
n inside, i hid my emotions..
anger, i nv reali saw the need..
sadness, a passing phase i cud tweak.
nv did i realise tat wat i tot made me strong was in fact eating me away..
for in my strongest belief, i found my weakness.

for months i concealed the darkness inside..
the power of the mind and determination would reign over n ignite the empty cold to light.
yet i succumbed and empty shadows became a familiar sight.

i felt so selfish..
while there were pple indeed sufferin, living each day in hell and tormented agony..
and there i was, engulfed in all my silliness n self-pity..
i guess i didnt try enough tho..
n soon, the girl in the mirror was a stranger to mi..

suddenli, sometink i nv imagined to be..
found myself crying for hrs..
sleep became a shut-eye routine, nothin more..
for days extended and mummi cud onli sit n look as i cud give no answer as to y i was tt way..
everyone grew tired i noe..
i did too..

few understood, but all stood by..
mummi, whose strength amazes mi, u're my pillar of strength and i cant imagine what i'll do wo u..
sa, ur listening ear n open heart heals so much n do noe tt i care too!.. =)
rae n elsa, thx fer always being there, we'll get by, we hav each other!..
steph, geoki n wx, tho far apart, there's tis special bond btw us tt words cant describe..
tuckie, thx for constantli reminding mi tt i've a friend in u, u're a gr8 buddy!..
and chris, audris, bryan, shannon, socks, minghong, pangy, shimin, sunghun..
all treasures to mi..
oh man, there's too many to mention, to baby, for always listening wo judgement and nv failing to make the worst days seem right, u're a darling =)

i didnt noe y, but i began to let go..
of the past tt was hindering mi so..
its time to grow up, my angel beakoned..
n i was to follow..
the pple i love, who love mi so, i noe u care..
bit by bit i'll step into the light..
start living for the present and a whole life to come..
i cant wait.. *excited*
lol..
i mean it..
a yr's been wasted, no more shud b..
for i am not my own..
too much time's been dwelling on yesteryear..
but i've learnt so much..
n thankful for everyone..

i Nv wAnNa fOrgEt..

common tests r finally over!..
*silly grin*
for mi that means:
no more bingeing (i tink)..
no more walkin ard the hse sighing to mummi..
no more sitting ard doin NOTHING jus cos i'm too bored to study..
(n yet feel guilty if i do anytink else)
exam time = unconstructive, period.
k, i tink e results r unthinkable..
but like i told the class guys,
it doesnt matter, mummi'll still love mi.. x)

did nlb tourguiding tis mornin..
hehe..
it was some special tour for old folks so there we were struggling w chinese..
but it din turn out too bad..
tho it was like a translate the words urself tour..
they were reali nice bout it tho..
the ladies were like u're v sweet..
satisfaction when it was over..
esp when tis lady said she was gg to bring her grandson there next week..
lol..

today was gr8..
watched army daze..
it was so-so..
hehe..
did i mention dinner was YUM.
veal w mozzeralla cheese..
lobster linguine..
a lil of baby's err.. squid ink fusilli..
but the highlight was definitely dessert..
chocolate tart tt was oozing out tis super yummy dark choc topped w raspberry sobet..
(to tink we tot e hot choc cake we had for snack b4 din was great)
n apple tart w vanilla icecream..
ooh..
i'm cud jus LIVE on desserts..
went to a lil flea mkt w pple dancing nearby..
baby lets stay longer next time k? =)
n i love tt pic.. *BIG smile*

oh oh..
n cousin della's comin to CJ!..
happy earli birthday girl!.. =D
so many pple's birthday tis month!
mummi, baby, lewis..

oh ya, dajie juz gave birth to tis lil baby!!
jieyi..
he has teeny tiny ears tt r pinky..
(cant see his toes n fingers tho, he's all bundled up)
n tis reali cute way of yawnin..
=)
n kor showed us the delivery video..
MAN!..
k it looks PAINFUL.
*scary*
k next time i'm gonna bite my husband when i hav a baby..
care n share..
lol..

talkin bout giving birth..
i tink mummi's nuts bout her baby goldfishes..
looks at it more den at mi..
(k i'm not exactli a picture but still..)
hehe..
she says she's the midwife or sometink..
i tink e bloodworms r DISGUSTIN.
lol..
poppi's poor fishes r neglected.. =p

i'm getting withdrawal symptoms of swimmin..
tink i'm reali hopeless on land..
sigh..
pls pls pls lemme pass standing broad jump..
i promise to not hav second helpings of dessert for a whole mth if i do..
y cant i be a water baby or sometink..

if i hav faith den i'll be free..
for tmr baby..
stay.

cHiNesE nEW yeAr

hey bloggie..
lol..
i'm not going to ramble bout how much i've eaten or anytink todae cos tink every1's on a sugar high too..
haha..
but i wudnt mind a slimming center's endorsement deal?..
marie france yes?
*hopeful smile*
anyway, jie's just left after lunch and all r comin over for dinner again later..
cny has been better than i tot..
had been quite cynical bout it before..
come tink bout it, many wudnt hav bothered to catch up if there was no cny..
lol..

tinks i learnt tis cny:
1. grandma doesnt mind pple wearin all black cos both her sisters did jus tt..
head to toe.. (hehe.. come next yr... )
2. NEVER wear BRIGHT pink nail polish no matter how well it goes w ur outfit..
Erishine baby tinks i look like mama..
3. it is dangerous to sit ard a table with lotsa goodies doin nothin.. u'll need the willpower of a mountain..
4. bjorny's mummi makes the best curry..
5. and jus in case mummi reads tis.. you make the best nian gao! x)
6. limit house visits to three times a day.. having five PROPER meals with well-meaning relatives who make food piling their duty is NOT funni..
7. dun bother attemptin to do any work durin cny.. its futile..
8. mama has super hyper grandchildren..

hehe..
Happy Chinese New Year!.. =)

fLy AWaY..

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

my latest earworm..
love tis song..
=)

aRouNd Sin9aPOrE tOwN.. =)

yay!..
flimin's over n i had a great time!..
despite havin to do e touch ur pendant scene like 10times..
(cos my finger's too fat it covers the entire lil tink)
it was fun..
n gettin to know such nice pple..
chuan hui, liting, hui xia, the wardrobe guy, fei-ge n mr cameraman...

so quickli one week of 2006's over..
a while more n many of us will turn 18..
so?..
the tot of it scares mi tho..
time will fly n pple will come & go..
a lil while later n we'll all be old...
but i'm thankful cos it makes mi wanna live life more..
no stoning and no dazing or wastin time tis year..
its gonna be bz n all but i'll love every second of it..
even the downsides.
cos they are the ones tt make u stop n think n appreciate e lil tinks..

was supposed to meet jean for GB yest..
but she plain forgot bout the app..
so sa, rae n i ended up gg for dessert..
chocolate truffle cake w fried mars bars..
*grin*
throat hurt when i woke up tis mornin..
but i had my dessert.. =)
saw jiajin along the way..
n siyu too! (miss ya dear..)
her mummi was like "u fatter already ah"
xp

n sa!..
hehe..
you missed a whole lot!..
cos after u left there were 3 tourists..
steward from nevada,
L... from Utah,
B.. from India..
(k i'm REALI bad w names)
anyway..
they asked for directions den went to wait at the taxi stand..
but the queue was reali reali long..
so we decided to give them a tour ourselves..
lol..
n it was kinda hilarious..
cos we ended up outside the ministry of sound..
n rae was wearing SCHOOL uniform..
haha..

n now some of us r kicked to other classes for math cos there's banding now..
n my new teacher's scary cos she went like:
"i'm gg to keep giving all of you extra tests n revisions.."
less than 5mins after we sat down..
but i kinda like her style..
i tink..

oh stephie n wx dear..
i wanna meet up..
soon!..
*hugs*